you can buy your position...

but you can't never buy RESPECT.

i saw this phrase from a forwarded e-mail,
and it really means a lot.

so what if you have tonnes and tonnes of posts?
do YOU think you have that amount of respect that you should ACTUALLY EARN from that position?

so what if you keep sticking your ass and bootlicking your superior?
do YOU think that you are truly appreciated as an individual?

on another thought,

so what if you work your ass off over something now?
do you think that your work is truly appreciated in the end?

i've been thinking about this for quite some time,
had some self-thoughts you see.

but i'm NOT talking about myself this time, no worries.
just some random thoughts.

anyway here are few other random shots i took from Geographer's Cafe last weekend :




by the way, my old injuries is back. super thanks to badminton.

this is my left arm (the injured one) :

see how swollen it is. my muscle ROSAK already =(

this is my right arm :


compare both arms and say FML.
sigh.

Novice Cup 2009

I remembered telling myself that I have to cut down on sports,
and also tournaments.
If I don't, my injuries will never recover.

But as Novice Cup was approaching,
and my dear classmates and even my BB were so enthusiastic and spirited in training for that tournament.

They trained consistently, tried ways to improve themselves
in hope that they will stand a chance to be given a title in this competition.

Somehow, I got influenced by this spirit
and decided to participate in Novice Cup as well.

Initially, I wanted to participate in Singles and Doubles only.
Unfortunately, the new rules stated that ex-finalists for FEMALE categories are not allowed to participate from the game.
So the only category I could enter was Women's Doubles.

Since it was my last tournament, I decided to try my best
and not disappoint my partner.. Wan Ying :)

I was really looking forward to this Novice Cup because many of my friends took part in the tournament.
Friends from different circles, even Wan Lin's LERRY Yeo (inside joke).
In the end, some friends played against each other and all I could do was to watch,
can't support one side only mah :P

FINALS : Deanna & Ying Ling vs Wan Ying and I

prize giving ceremony

the winners

the organizing committees and high committees. good job to Sports Affair & Technical Division :)

wan ying and i. see how tired we look.

yong siang & boon yew, runners up for men's doubles

deanna & ying ling.

the last pic of the day was of course with my darling ^^

FINALLY.

An incident occurred, and it really got me sad and disappointed.
Baby somehow got injured and he couldn't play well.
He eventually lost in both his Singles and Doubles match.
Sigh, if it weren't for the injuries, he would have been in the semis!
He was really disappointed and frustrated about it as well.
My poor baby :(

But oh well, it's all over.
At least everyone of us here knows that CC and Heng Guan are really good players :)

Anyway..

I'm really glad that I finally got what I should have earned in Novice Cup 2 years back (2007). I could still remember that very day when I argued with Oliver right after I lost my Doubles match. I lost that match because I didn't know how to attack or even defend during the match. In the end, my partner also got frustrated with me.

This time, the nerves got the better off me during FINALS as well. I made mistakes, mistakes that I rarely do. And even the audience kept saying aloud that I'm left handed ("左手 左手!!") and they should attack my backhand since I was bad at it. My mistakes got me really frustrated but I told myself to keep focusing. In a way, the audience also helped remind me to focus on my flaws (though I didn't really did well too. HA!)

Some might say that I won the match because of my partner, who is stronger and better. I won't deny that my partner is a way better player than me. I really owe it to her for our glory. I know that many look down on me because I can't play badminton as well as them, or other players.

But take a look again.

Mind my modesty but if you readers realised this, out of all the female players who participated in the tournaments (and the other tournaments that I've been in), I was the only player who didn't have formal badminton training. I started learning badminton 2 years back, I didn't even know how to hold the racquet properly. I didn't even own a racquet. After 2 months of "shortcut" training, I participated in my very first tournament which was Novice Cup 2007 and I won FIRST PLACE for the Mixed Doubles match. However, due to cease of the training sessions with my "coach", my skills eventually dropped till this very day.

I hope YOU can get this right.

I can't help but feel emotional over this issue. I just feel hurt whenever I think about the comments I've been hearing all these while. All I wanted was just to enjoy the matches and gain more experiences as I play against all these good players who are my friends. You think I don't want to improve? You tell me, who doesn't want to be the best? Badminton is a part of my interests, but I know that I have more important priorities.

But anyway, Novice Cup 2009 is the last tournament for me already. It's time for me to call it quits for badminton tournaments.

Well, I should focus on my incoming events right? ^^

Like I told someone before,

"I may not be a good badminton player, but I will do my very best to be a good event organizer".

And I'll stick to my words ;)

P.S : Congratz to the rest of the winners as well.. Chong Hong, Lei Mun, Choon Ming, Wee Meng, Yong Siang, Boon Yew, Deanna, Ying Ling, Daisy, Hui Tian, Wendy, Sin Hwee and i apologize if I missed out anyone.

P.S.S : This sounds like an angry post, but don't worry I feel much better already. I apologize if anyone felt the pinch. BUT, this is my blog and I believe I'm entitled to blog what I want rite? :P

drive drive

it is a rainy day today.
i have Chinese class at 4pm, and it ends at 6pm.
Quan has badminton at 6pm, and he has to leave earlier.
he isn't able to fetch me.
so.... he said,

"you drive my car lah"

i stared at him, wondering whether i heard wrongly or not.

"you drive my car"

"you sure?!" *blink blink*

"yeah. otherwise how are you going home later?"

"but me, driving alone? you sure or not? i'm scared lehh.."

"nvm, just use the small roads then you'll be fine"

i was excited yet afraid.
if anything happens to his car, i'll be in deep trouble.

in the end, i agreed.

i hesitated moments before entering the car,
and neighbours were starring at me.

and then... i started the engine, and drove.

corner, brake, brake, corner, no cars... FASTER CHIONGGG!!

i was lucky there were empty parking lots at EP,
and i didn't have to do any reverse parking.

FYI, his car is a MANUAL car

GIRL + MANUAL car = uh-oh

especially when it's her first time driving.

the moment i reached class,
i smsed Sim and asked her to accompany me in the car after class ended.

i really owe her a big one this time.

thank God i reached home in ONE piece, and the car too.

the only memalukan thing is that,
i mati enjin twice.

both were also along the road when i braked.
told you i suck at braking.

i really need to brush up my driving skills.
not giving up!

this sums up my first experience driving alone,
in a MANUAL car.
(die die also must emphasis on the MANUAL part)

life goes on.

life is like an hour glass.
it keeps flowing down, and can never reverse in time.

and also, it is fragile.

Rest In Peace my friend.

though we've never really exchanged words before,
but you have made a big impact in us all..

thank you for your commitment in Badminton Club.

do bless us all, and your family too :)

this is the only picture i got of CW,
he's the one at bottom right, with specs

I DON'T WANNA GO CAMP !!!

SOB, IF I GO AS A CAMP COMMITTEE THEN STILL OKAY..
BUT I'M GOING AS A PARTICIPANT !!!

I WANNA GO MUAR TO WATCH THE VOLLEYBALL TOURNAMENT !!!

I'VE BEEN PLANNING AND WAITING TO WATCH THIS TOURNAMENT FOR MONTHS!!

FML CAN !!!

I BADLY NEED A WEEKEND TO SLEEP IN THE ENTIRE DAY AND DO NOTHING.
SOB (X1000000000000000000000) ~

SHIT, IT'S RAINING NOW.
BAD NEWS.

TOMORROW'S GONNA BE VERY WET DAY AS WELL, I SUPPOSE.
*fingers crossed*

21st Bee-Day (Part 3)

Sorry for the late updates people!

As usual, I was very busy with stuffs.. which I will blog about later on :)
Anyway, here's the blog post I promised :P

As mentioned (if not mistaken), I suggested having a birthday celebration in Muar since it was very near Melaka and it was just after finals. Plus, I followed CC back to Muar for few days as well, and got to meet his relatives and all. Unfortunately, alot of them couldn't make it as they had their own plans :(

But, a promise is a promise. The PLAN still had to go on.

And of course, we bought some food to bring up to Gunung Ledang for lunch/picnic.

the RED tupperware you see has mashed eggs in it. done by yours truly :)
a total of 10 eggs were used for the preparation.

We reached our destination around 10am, in 2 cars.

one picture together before starting our journey UP.

We started climbing...

And climbing...

It took the life out of me to climb up all those stairs and slopes! Old already sial, no more stamina.. unlike before :(

Halfway through the journey

And finally, we reached the waterfalls!


The water was friggin' cold. It took a very long time before I decided to step into the water.. But everyone got used to the water's temperature after some time.

The guys spotted some eel lookalike and the rest of us gathered around the area to have a look a it. Being the typical "kiasi" me, I didn't dare to go near the eel.. and even screamed few times when something underneath touched my legs!

We even fed the fishes with bread, and even tried to catch those fishes.. but attempt failed :P

Some shots taken at the waterfalls :

me and baby ^^


human koala!



*smack smack*

SPOTTED : God of Gunung Ledang

the guys paying their respects to the "GOD". ROFL~

There weren't many shots of me because I was busy snapping pics here and there. There are alot more pictures, but I'm just too lazy to upload them all.. Anyhow there are more pictures below for you to see..... if you actually have the patience to finish reading this post :P

Oh yeah, we had our picnic there too. I was too hungry to even think of taking pictures when everyone was eating. HAHA.

After that, we headed on to Tangkak for some chicken rice, suggested by Nanyuan. This is one of the few times when I really enjoyed eating chicken rice. It was so yummy~ I love the soup especially.. look on and you'll know why.

the soup has pork internal organs and beancurd in it. damn nice can! i'm missing the soup already~

this is GOH NAN YUAN.

the guys after eating

We returned to Muar after that, and I immediately konk-ed out the moment I was on the bed. Woke up many hours later unwillingly though. LOL.

We went to have some CRAB MEE HOON for dinner :)

BB posing for me, of all poses =.=

See what we had for dinner :

pork ribs with yam. nice nice nice!

the famous crab mee hoon. i suka too!

veg, still okay.. i'm not a fan of veg :P

black pepper pork

We went to Tanjung (the infamous seaside of Muar) after having our fill. CC's car was the first to reach, so we had to wait for the other to arrive. As usual, I took pictures.. but it was simply too dark. Managed to snap this picture though ^^


After some time, CC received a call from Heng Guan, asking us to meet them at some place nearby. We walked walked and walked, and finally we spotted Heng Guan's car. I noticed nobody was in the car, but I just kept quiet and merely followed.

We reached HG's car and CC opened the back seat door. And this is what I saw :

a cake and a bouquet of roses

I was really surprised can! I never expected that he would give me a surprise for my birthday. I thought the Gunung Ledang trip and dinner was the celebration already. I was speechless when I saw the cake and flowers and kept looking at him :)

the cake even has my favourite MOO MOO on it :D:D:D

i love you BB, as always <>

Later on, we went for snooker at town and headed home. Took some shots of the flowers and us posing with the flowers.



Somebody suggested going for the 4am Laksa at town later that night. So they played "chor dai di" and decided that the person who loses the round will pay for everyone's meal. Unfortunately, dear CC lose the game. LOL.

He even lost the round where the loser had to wash the plates.

At 4am, we departed Bakri and went for some Laksa!

so-so only. but it's something i never did before.. having Laksa at 4am in the morning.

This year is one of the most memorable years I ever had. Besides having 3 birthday celebrations with my different circle of friends, I also experienced alot of challenges and hurdles this year. From studies to club events to family and finally to relationship, I went through it all.

I thank God for giving me this determination for being able to go through everything strongly. I also wanna thank God for letting my patience and love pay off.. by meeting HIM.

Okay okay, nuff' of mushy stuffs. LOL.

More updates when I'm free.. I have too many pics with me, and not compiled nicely yet!

21st Bee-Day (Part 1 & 2)

Indeed, this year is one of my most memorable birthday among my 21 years of living.

I have to admit, I really wanted my 21st birthday to be special or memorable because I haven't been really celebrating my birthday all these years. It doesn't have to be grand or something, just wanted to celebrate with my dear friends.. and for now, my loved one.

Did wish that I could celebrate with my girlfriends though :(

The Accounting gang had planned a BBQ party on last Wednesday, which was the last day of my torturous exam season. It was Mr. Kuen Long who thought of the BBQ party, plus it's been a very long time since the whole lot of us actually spent time together.

the guys BBQ-ing

The girls decided to celebrate Andrew and my birthday that very same day as well, since they weren't able to make it for the incoming Muar trip (next post, be patient!).

They got me a gift as well :)

BB bringing the cake over to us

Andrew and I cutting the cake. see the way he's holding the knife.
"no physical contact.. later CC kill me". LOL.
but no worries, CC was pretty okay about it ;)

US

the "jie-mei"s & i, in the birthday dress. thanks girls ^^

I had to leave earlier as I had to attend my next agenda, PURE BAR with the girls. I also decided to wear the dress that the girls got me :)

The rest had a last minute plan to go to Alor Gajah Air Panas after the BBQ session. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to tag along :(

Now, for Celebration Part 2.

It's a yearly tradition of Badminton Club "Old" Family to celebrate everyone's birthday. I didn't get to celebrate my birthday with them last year as it was during the finals, but they did get me a present though :)

This year, I celebrated my birthday with Dun Siang and Ying Zhong. Heh, I celebrated with them 2 years back too.

First up, the whole group had dinner at Shibaraku. The funny thing was that we didn't really eat much that day, knowing the Black Hole-lookalike stomachs of the guys. LOL.


moi :)

After eating we were supposed to head over to Pillow Bar (Tribe upstairs @ Melaka Raya) but changed our minds because most of us don't drink alcoholic drinks.

So.. we went to the BIG FIELD above Dataran Pahlawan! A cheap and convenient way of celebrating, despite the darkness.

MY birthday cake

from front to back : Dun Siang, ME, Ying Zhong's cake.

I like my cake the most maybe because it was PANDAN cake (you know those layered cake with thick jelly lookalike in between?) Perhaps a little change out of the usual Chocolate made my cake more outstanding eh? *winks*

Fret not, all 3 cakes were tasty :)

me cutting the cake

Dun Siang had this cute idea of the birthday babies popping champagne. So he rushed to Carrefour to get 3 bottles of champagne.

the birthday babies popping the champagne.

I had a hard time trying to pop the champagne though. Bo skill bo skill!!

3 cheers to us :)

And finally it was time to go home. We took a few shots before we left.

the girls and the birthday people, and the photographer :)

the guys

Next post, Muar Trip! Stay tuned ;)

i'll be back in awhile. have been pretty busy with stuffs lately, as usual.

i'll try my best to blog about my bee-day tomorrow.

anyway, a lil sneek peak about the incoming's post.

1 picture tells it all.